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Work's been pretty crazy, more and more work gets piled on as the days go past this week. To think that I even had half a mind to apply for leave, just to have a break. Guess that won't be happening anytime soon. Maybe after the review paper is written.

But having said that, I thoroughly enjoy work. Even though the coupling reaction that I recently carried out gave me the opposite anomer to the one that I want, I somehow find myself enjoying it. Heck.. it means I have to go back and make more starting material, and try the coupling reaction a few more times, but oh well. The work environment that I am in makes a whole lot of difference. Lab mates who are optimistic (way more optimistic than I am) and smart, and supervisors who are passionate about chemistry makes what I do more a challenge than a dread. I can tell when my supervisor is excited about what I do, because he would come running into the lab, looking for me, asking me how my reaction went, whether the building blocks coupled, and whether I made the alpha or the beta product! And then I can tell he's REALLY excited when I go in for my individual meeting to present them with NMR data which I just got in the morning, only to find that M was so impatient to find out the results, he had already logged in and checked for my results!

Alright, enough about geeky work. Everything's going pretty fine here. Coping with the breakup is quite a challenge, and it came with more frustrations than I expected- some were with Dan, but most of them were internal issues that I have to wrestle with. I have come to realise that no one will really understand, and it is a journey that I have to go through on my own. I find myself clinging on to God's words and his plans for my life. I have no clue what it is...but it better be worth all the pain. Not to say that clinging on to God's words have been easy. Firstly, it's not very tangible. And secondly, my human brain is still struggling to understand what greater good God wants to bring out of this. But in the mean time, I will just have to go with the flow of life, embracing every aspect of it and being thankful for all the good things that I have.