sqrewloose

It's depressing that my life can actually fit into boxes.

Ok, maybe the boxes of textbooks, course materials, notes, files of bank statements, bags, shoes, rubbish, clothes, clothes and more clothes is not the only measure of my life. There are relationships that are built, experiences both pleasant and unpleasant, crazy moments and all that which will never be contained in a box.. they will only be carried with me, in my heart, and to some extent my memory. Yet like all memories, they're liable to decay as new experiences displace them.

That's life I guess.

Packing somehow always manages to evoke these strange feelings that makes me feel nostalgic about the routine that I have established over the year, and yet excited about the future that is about to unfurl.

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Bare. 

Empty.

Barren.

Cold.

White.

Leave I must, but my heart is unwilling because it knows that the same will never return.

My brain, it says that the old must go to make way for the new.

My body, it's just tired and needs to sleep. 

God's spirit says that He will guide me as I journey untrodden path.

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Ok.. I think i might call it a night soon, though missy here very rarely goes to bed before 1am! But work has started for me, and my 8 hrs or work a day needs an hour of transport each way. But I'm not going to complain, because I am actually excited to finally be able to do Chemistry benchwork again. I forgot how that felt, until I helped some guy run a column today. Columns are horrible, and I know they are every chemist's nightmare, but still.. figuring out the solvent systems, spotting TLC plates, running TLCs, multitasking between the TLC, solvent in the column and changing the test tubes... all that love-hate feeling comes rushing back to me! I need to learn to love what I'm doing.. And i think i'm beginning to. See, Malaysian education system is horrible, makes u feel as if education stops at the point when ur exams are over! I tend to forget everything that I've learnt! But nevermind, I will strive.

So whatelse? Baked a carrot cake with Leesh yesterday, and had pancakes for lunch- nothing can beat pancakes with original Maple syrup! Lacrosse was good yesterday, played with the boys and gosh, I am sooo unfit! I felt like a tortoise when defending a guy, they just zip away! Am thinking of getting a lacrosse stick, but it's NZ$90. Apparently that's the cheapest u can get them in the whole world, cos from UK it is 90pounds. Dont knw what it costs in US. I'm hoping they have it in Msia, so i can get them when i go back, but I highly doubt it. I fell in love with the gold lacrosse stick with an ORANGE head! But then again.. I'm holding back.. till I get more cash.. plus, I'm afraid it might be "hangat hangat tahi ayam."

 Leesh's place is awesome! Central.. and cosy. I have a whole double bed to myself. Though, like reen, I'm home alone for this whole week cos she's away for a conference. I am quite enjoying it actually, for now.. somehow, in Wgtn i seem to be able to survive even when I'm alone.. sometimes. I quite enjoy having "me time".

Reen: Ur previous entry.. it's as if u tapped into my brain/heart and wrote what I felt- with regards to ur family's well being,  dreams/sacrifices and all that!

ps: Ying, i might not get my flight on 21st (Still bugging SIA about the flight), but I have one confirmed on 23 Dec!  If i do fly on 23 Dec, I have a transit in Spore between 6,40pm (23 Dec) and 8.05 am (24 Dec). 14 HOURS TRANSIT...AGAIN! Maybe I should go into town this time. When are u going back to Msia? Maybe I could meet u in Spore if u're still there. Though, everything is not confirmed yet, I'm still hoping to get my flight on 21st.

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Oh yeahhh oh yeahhhhh... *dances around*

I got my all results back, and I'm very pleased with them! Thank God!!! Woohooo.. Now I know for sure that I'll be graduating this Dec 12!!! Oh yeahh oh yeahhhhh...

Hahaha.. Sorry, I just needed a moment to celebrate.

Work's been awesome for the past week, though I foresee a lot of hard work this summer. Which will be good, so I dont slack.

I'll be making a trip to Palmy this Weds with my supervisor (she's real young and crazy! which is fun!) to visit NZ Pharmaceuticals- the ppl paying me. Shd be a fun day out. Have to  prep a bit for my meeting with project coordinator and department head as well. And guess what? On friday, I attended my first Management meeting- working in a commercial research environment will be an eye-opener for me!

Lacrosse was gruelling today, and boy was it sunny! Thank God for caps and SPF50+ sunscreen! Bring on the tan! 

Ok.. i think a jacuzzi/bath is what I deserve before another long week!