P E O P L E  A R E  D E S P A R A T E.

F O R  T H E  W R O N G  T H I N G S.

H O W  S A D.

Nothing went right in my Chemical Synthesis Lab today. Kept spilling stuff. 4 hours of lab.. glad that's over for the week now..

I miss this little fella so much....

Little maxy!

Mt Egmont/ Mt Taranaki was sooo majestic! Aint it awesome if you could see this mountain every time you look out of your window? That's what they get at Micheal's farm. I think it rocks! Somehow, looking at it gives me soo much peace and certainty. Ok, mayb not certainty cos it's due to errupt in 50 years, and wipe out all its surroundings. But still, words like strong, majestic, peace and solid comes to mind when i look at it. And it just makes me want to praise Him for all these intricate handiwork which exists alongside us to remind us of his love, his blessings, and his creativity.

I've had a long day and there are long days ahead. But just being reminded of His "bigness" by stepping back and looking at the wider picture gives me the sense of peace, and certainty in Him which I cannot even begin to describe. So many things when zoomed in, seem so complicated and uncertain and yet, when viewed through His eyes, in concordance to His word, they fade away and seem trivial. Sometimes, when i sit and reflect, there are so many things that we seem to get caught up with, that we forget the ultimate call of being a follower of Christ. For instance, we get so absorbed into things that we encounter daily, like classes, assignments, Boy/ girl rships, latest movie to catch, the latest fashion, a new club on the corner.. that we lose sight of things that are beyond. Things that matter more in the long run. And by long run, I mean loooooong run, things that can be "cashed" somewhere beyond this lifetime. I reckon, in the era of 2 minute noodles, 2 minute rice, 2 minute pasta sauce, 1 minute meals... we focus too much on what we reap at this instant. If it does not bring any benefit in the near future, it is not worth it. Instant gratification to satisfy the criterias that apparently make up a "full life". And i must sadly admit that often, i catch myself chasing after things that does not actually matter so much. If they do not matter so much.. then what matters more?

thoughts... I'l leave them here for now.

and i miss this fella too...

Currently feeling: tired...

Earthquake... again. It was freaky, especially to a Malaysian here. Earthquakes, volcanoes, tornado and all that are foreign to me! Apparently we're meant to stand under a doorway when earthquake strikes. Something that I did not find out until recently. Anyhow.. check this out! Yes, it just happened. Micheal and I were rushed to get out of the kitchen. Thank God it was not on the Wgtn faultline. A massive earthquake is predicted to hit Wgtn soon.

So, what do I do? For one, I better make sure I'm wide awake when i walk into the kitchen in the mornings because for all I know, it might have crumbled if it hit in the night. No, since when did I imply that I was a deep-sleeper?!

A sight which never fails to cheer my day after a climb up the hill on the way to class at an unGodly hour! Try imagining the city all lit up at night. Thank God for this beautiful city.

The journey home. Gotta use a pedestrian access, which is pretty creepy at night. Right See the road where the van is parked? That's the road my flat is on. The steps are alright downwards, but imagine you are late for class in the morning, and u have these awesome flight of steps.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 Adams Terrace

 

 

 

Ok.. Aro Valley is considered the "slumps". Pretty shabby. What i circled is my flat, the kitchen. See why I say the kitchen is the 1st to go when Earthquake hits? 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Surprise! More of these steps! My flat is at the top!

 

 

 

 

 Ok.. I really should be sleeping. I went for TSCF's 70th Bday Party just now. It was awesome to see that so many generations have been impacted through TSCF. It's awesome to look at the bigger picture of what it means to be a follower of Christ on campus. It amazes me to see how God is still working in this generation which seems resist Him.

So many thoughts. So many ideas. So many questions. So much information.

Too much for me to comprehend at the moment. Too much for me to handle, mentally, emotionally. Have you ever felt like there is so much out there and yet, you feel so belittled because you dont seem to know enough. Maybe not in the context of knowledge, but more in comprehension of something. It feels as if I'm swimming in a galaxy of knowledge, opinion and ideas, some which I cannot sort out for certain. But I am certain that I should first find my rest in God. And yet..... it keeps swarming in! It's tiresome sometimes to think about these things. And again, the other me suggests that I need to Order my Private World with God first.

I GOT IT!!

 I GOT IT!

I GOT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm soooooooooooo excited!!!!!!! I recently applied for a Summer Research Scholarship to ANU (Australian National University) in Canberra. The scholarship practically covers everything which includes my flight there and back from NZ, accommodation, food (?), and weekly allowance!!!!!!!!!!!! And on top of that, i get to work in a lab environment!! I was rather hesitant at first because they normally offer it to third year students, and I'm only a second year, which probably explains why i did not bother blogging about it. But I thought I must as well give it a shot. My God is awesome! Not just because I got a scholarship, I say he is AWESOME, but because of His constant watch over me, and keeping me on track with Him (even thru turmoil)...

THANK YOU LORD!!!!!

I'm soooo excited!!!!!!! Funny how i was just talking to my lecturer who was my referee just now, and he asked me again, if I have heard back from them and i told him no. And then, he mentioned that another student of his, who applied was told unofficially that she was accepted. And my heart dropped for a bit, thinking that i probably did not get it, since I did not get any email yesterday. And then, here in the library, I checked my mail and replied my dad's email and told him that I havnt heard back about the schship. And when i clicked "Next", it was the email from the ANUu lecturer telling me that I got it!!!!!!!!!!

Ok..i hav to run for Leadership training now. Ta!!!!!

ps: ppl who have been praying for me/ with me (you know who you are).. thank you, and do rejoice with me as I rejoice with God!

 

Currently feeling: overjoyed!