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BLeeehhhhhhh...

 Im so tired. So exhausted. Aihzz....seriously cant wait for the week, or the month to be over. The Secondhand Bookstall has been my life since Uni started, and cant wait for next tuesday for it to officially end. You see, eggvery year, ICf and Christian Union (CU) get together to offer this service to students, and we get a 15% commission! So yeah, have been in the committee, and have been crazily busy with advertising, and just the physical running of the Bookstall. And on top of that, we have to organise events for new students for ICF. There's Kiwi 101 tonight, and then, Car Rally 2mr, and CGs to set up.

GOd, this is a service to You, and I ask that You will give me the strength, physically and mentally. I've been totally drained, and yeah...But even as I ask that of You now, I know that all I needed to do is spend time with You,and just to come to Your feet, and sit and BE STILL. And as long as I'm connected to you, and living my day with You at the top, I will be renewed. Lord, I ask that I re-focus to You, that you will give me new determination, and strength as that of an eagle at dawn.

I remember telling myself when I first joined the ICF Committee that the things I have to do, will be things to God, and as much as I can help it, I do not want to view it as a chore, nor a painful duty.

And the weather is not much helpful. Autumn has been on time this year...so...yeah...blah..even had to dig out my wonter jacket this morning cos it was raining and cold.

Currently feeling: Dead

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Ok..i so must do my readings for economics. Know barely a page worth of stuff. Econs is like a totally diff language for me. LOL! But it's gonna be fun. Haha..

 ANyway, for Ping, and Sue..and whoever else...

Add: 28B Adams Terrace, Kelburn, Wellington, NZ. (dont worry, dont need post code, ulu NZ )

Tel: +64 4 8033548

Cell no. is still the same.

Ok, i really hope no random ppl read this entry, cos im not planning to put it on Friends-only.

 Bookstall is finally over. Apparently we're going to get quite a terrible debriefing session soon, with the siniors who established the Bookstall from previous years. Oh well..whatever it is..Im just really glad it's over. Partially celebrated by going for Casanova with some friends! Loved that movie, perfect for unwinding.

Take the animal, and leave the pig.

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P for procrastinating.... 

i ought to be studying. Doing my readings. Or at least sleeping. But...*grins*

 the Ho Yan Hor flat (fr left: Andrew, Jas, Michael Forde, Mua, Micheal Warren)

It's funny how Andrew was so amused with the Chinese Herbal Tea that Jas and I have, and we decided to name our flat Ho Yan Hor. And can you imagine, when applying for a Flat account at the bank, we had to give a name, and we called it Ho Yan Hor! LOL! Am attempting to teach my fellow flatmates chinese/malay. SO far, i've gotten thru "kangkung", "chiew (banana in Canto)", "ngoh sot keh ("im crazy" in Canto) and a few other random words. Andrew proves to be quite good at Asian pronunciations so far!

Our 1st meal at the new flat when we just moved in:

Ok, i should go. Have been procrastinating for wayyyy too long. Crazy music students (andrew and michael) are singing weird tunes now. Quite a cool bunch though, fun! Gotta spend more time in my flat, cos have been busy for the past 2 weeks.

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Superb. A four hour lab ended and hour early! Woohoo!

Something to ponder on:

Though it seems very cliched whenever we hear of psychologists or even read in one of those "Growing Up" books, that youths go thru this phase where they search for themselves and their identity. The whole process of looking for who they are, and simply defining themselves.

I cant help but notice the phenomena amongst ppl around me, and also i perk up and notice that sometimes it happens to me as well. And it's amazing how one starts from a spot, and as if standing in the middle of a big field, one can walk in absolutely any direction you wish. And funny how i notice some ppl define themselves by academic excellence, whilst some others define themselves by social life, or even both. Or some may even define themselves with the love they have/had. And yet, there are some who rate themselves based on waht others see them as ie parents, peers.

It's interesting to see how youths rank things in their lives, material or not.

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Nothing is better than being greeted by a warm, bright, sunny, and windless day!

 So, this happy gal got up, spent time with God, marinated mince for dinner, and clad in tank top, sunnies, and jandals headed for town to get her Visa renewal sorted out! It actually took me less time than expected, which was good!

I love to walk around the CBD during lunch hours. SImply love the air around! And on a sunny day? No way I was gonna catch the bus back up to Campus. So..I decided to take a stroll in town. Ohh..the sight of people of all sorts, in suits-carrying briefcases. People chatting on their hands-free, fine old ladies, chatting away with their friends. Punks, with baggy cargoes and chains. Joggers with pump bottles all sweaty after a good run over lunch time.

And one sight that just warms my heart: A mother by a pram, meeting the father, who's probably out on lunch hour, to see his baby!! How sweet!

People having lunch, on benches, at parks, in swanky restaurants, outside cafes, and on busses. What a sight! And so, i treated mylsef to a McD vanilla cone, and headed back up to campus via the Hotel lift! Such amazing pedestrian paths! And then, walked a fair bit up the slope toward Uni, under the sun. The sensation of the sunrays, browning my bare skin, is just what i needed after some days of crappy weather in Welly! Good. The weather did not deceive me this time.

You see, i find thrill in peering thru my curtains 1st thing in the morning, to see if the sun cast it's glory on the rolling hills not too far away. Because my flat is on a slope and it's at an angle, my room doesnt get the morning sun. And so, last sunday, the the sky looked promising, and I decided to go to church in skirt and jandals. The weather was behaving, until i got out of church, and discovered that it decided to throw a tantrum, and drop some tears!

It's just so lovely to be walking around uni during lunch hour. You see people having sandwiches, toasts, muffins, coffee, apples, or bananas while on the go! And even in class, you hear plastic crackling, and supressed munchings while lecturers chat away.

 Ahhh..the lil things that makes me smile  Thank you Lord, for these lil phenomenas which i sometimes take for granted. Thank you for the beauty all around me. I cant help but say that your glory is so evident all around me. All i needed to do was open my eyes, and observe! Teach me to find joy in the little blessings that is around me!

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Blah..im tired..have been out for 12 hours today. Worked at the library for 2 hours. And then had a four-hour lab. And then had committee meeting for ICF.

But i thank God for the blessings around me! Flatmates who cook, and save dinner for me at though i come back late.

Friends with cars who're willing to drop me home so i dont have to walk the dark steps that leads home, even though that means they have to drive a circle around town because of the one-way traffic systems.

Jas who cooked dinner and then breakfast the next day for me, because i was falling sick, and was not having proper meals.

A lovely bf who's patient with me and my busy schedule. And always manages to give me sweet lil surprises. He's been a blessing indeed, and i hope it is vice versa.

My favourite mum and sis (i only hav one of each.. ) who texts me, though i do not have any credit on my phone to reply.

And thank God for the 2 years of Visa that I got!! They dont issue 2-year visas anymore, but i somehow got it cos i had a schship, and there's no way im gona jsut "get lost in the country" and be an illegal immigrant! No way!

Currently feeling: zz

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Brrr...It's cold in here!!! Im almost shivery sitting in the lounge, with my polar fleece on and my wonderful toe socks!! Love my stripy toe socks. Brilliant invention! LOL! Random, but keeps me sane on a crazily cold day.

Aihz, it's only 1 month into AUTUMN, but the weather already took such a drastic turn!! The weather now is exactly how it was during WINTER! Grrr!!! But then again, apparently we had a very mild winter last year, compared to all years. But still!! Grr...it's the wind! It's crazy! I hate walking to class so early in the freezing cold!

It's amazing how D Big Ball of Fire has such an effect on our moods! See ping's blog!

Oh well..i've had a yummy dinner to compensate for it. Mike cooked yummy ham steak with potatoes and some veges. And to cap it off, we had some sparkling wine! And i chipped in Rum & Raisin Old Jamaica Chocs as dessert! Perfect meal! Im actually very pleased with how our meals are working out. Communal cooking is working out fine, and we're getting cheaper meals as well. The guys cook pretty well, so it's great! Also, i wont have to worry about dinner every night

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wahhhhhlauuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All i needed from a super cold day, and from being out for 12 hours today is a cold shower when i got back!! Mannnnn!!! I think my flatmates kinda finished using the hot water. Grrrr...babi man.. oh well..at least I had alright dinner, Jas cooked lemon chicken with fried rice. Yumm..

 SO much to do, so little time. A universal truth. There's ICF re-affiliation with VUW Student Association which is due in 2 days! And the grant application for Easter Camp too! So much paper work! And a test for Metabolism next friday. God...I need to be efficient with my time. I really cant wait for these 2 weeks to be over. I cant wait for the Easter holidays. Will be going to a Marae for Easter Camp again! And also for a retreat at Raumati. I need a break!!

anyway....

Happy Birthday Su Ann!!! you've hit 2 decades!!

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Even as I did my devotions today, I found that I was merely reading the Bible. Pastors these days (esp for children's church in transit to Youth) should pay more attn to equipping believers to be able to study the bible themselves. Youths esp, should be made aware of the various approaches to study the Bible. Yes it's true that the Holy Spirit will reveal truths to them in his own time, but how can the HS speak unless youths are taught that the HS does indeed minister to them and help them to understand GOd's words and how it relates to them personally?

As much as teaching the principles of walking with God is important, and imparting knowledge regarding God and Jesus is crucial, I feel it is just as important that we be educated to not accept things as shoved to us on a "silver platter". We can only be independent in our walk with God (ie not hitch-hike on our parents'/friends' faith) when we discover our faith in God for ourselves. Just as Sue wrote about the education system in Msia being ineffective, and students being more spoonfed than anything else, I think this has not only affected us academically, but it also contributed to our style of learning, and accepting things. We need to QUESTION YOUR OWN BELIEVES! WHY DO YOU BELIEVE WHAT YOU BELIEVE?!

And I feel this should apply for all religions, that's if that person is taking it seriously. Our beliefs that a God so mighty and sovereign exists should not be due to the fact that the human race needs solace and comfort that there is SOMEONE up there controlling things beyond our ability. Our faith that God is REAL should be a consequence of our personal encounter with him, that is, you actually know this "guy'!

I;m currently leading a Discovering Jesus Group and I love it how we come together in a small group and start evaluating and discovering who the dude, Jesus is! I love it how we could come together with ppl who are still searching in their faith and learn from their perspectives about Jesus and Christianity. A neutral environment where no questions are too silly/simple and no pressure of any sort. It's amazing how much u learn about your own faith from the questions that non-believers ask u! I admire ppl who search their beliefs and question their faith, be it for Jesus, Buddha, Nabi Muhammad or any other religion. I'm encouraged, I'm excited!

Ohya...I cooked an all-chinese meal today!! Fried fish, ABC soup, and Kangkung Belacan!! Yumm!!! Though I doubt the guys liked the belacan all too much cos it was  a lil spicy. Oh well..it was home for Jas and I..so it was good. But..gosh...!! It takes twice the time to cook a chinese meal than a simple kiwi meal!