There is a time for everything, and a seasin for every activity under heaven.

a time to be born and a time to die,

a time to plant and a time to uproot,

a time to kill and a time to heal

a time to tear down and a time to build,

a time to weep and a time to laugh,

a time to mourn and a time to dance,

a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,

a time to embrace anda  time to refrain,

a time to search and a time to give up

a time to keep and a time to throw away

a time to tear and a time to mend

a tiome to be silent and a time to speak

a time to love and a time to hate

a time for war and a time for peace.

Alright, there's a time for play, and a time for study! Gotta do it! 5 more weeks! Im soo counting down the weeks till this semester ends! Not that it's not fun or anything, but the thought of tests and assignments every week just seems so daunting. My hope is in God no doubt! Yesss! I'll do it!

Currently feeling: tired, sleepy, sick..:(

awww....suddenly i miss my friends soo much. Everyone! All the little things taht I do with the ppl that I know. Hmm..And more so those who are esp close to me, those whom I used to share stuff with. Seems like we're getting on with life, getting on with our circle of friends. But even as I sat and sort of reflected yesterday, I realised taht friends will always be friends, as long as you make the effort to keep in contact, if not often, then once in a while. Called sue for a really short while yest cos i havnt been talking to her in ages! And yeah, i just realised that if the friendship is deep enough (meaning not superficial, hi-bye friends) then, the bond would not fade. Anyways..hhaha...just feeling a lil emo. Hmm..wish i had all the money in the world to call ppl..Felt like calling so many ppl, to just catch up but just didnt have enough $$. And speaking about calling ppl, I called Aster yesterday, at 5.30 pm my time, which was about 1.30pm Msian time. But I missed her!! *sob!! I think she just left and her maid picked up. AIhz...

had a Bio of Animals test today. Wasnt in the mood to study yesterday, so didnt do as well as I should today. who on earth memorises Darwinian theory?! Ish..haha. It has been a long week for me, and it hasnt ended yet! Still have 2 labs, which is 4 hours in total tomorrow! Im jsut glad that im coming to the end of the week. And Im in such a huge SLEEP DEBT! arrghh..how I wish i can jsut sleep all my worries and tests away. And jsut dream of them on fluffy clouds instead. haha...Dreams...

Went for my frist CG for CF today. It was interesting! In depth. Made me realise that we cannot exist as a Christian alone. Well, we were discussing the parable of the Wheat and Weed from the Bible. And sooo many questions arised from the discussions, most of which i wouldnt even ask if i were to read the Bible alone in my room.  i mean, yes, i wil do my devotions, and it is important that i have my personal time with my Father, but sometimes...u also need to be in fellowhship with other ppl. Im thankfully blessed today.

Random thoughts:

1. You know how NZ is like the safest place on earth! I mean, we can walk anywhere, even at night, alone, as a girl, and u wil be find. U can walk in town, swing your handbag around, for all you care! Noo snatch thieves! But then, jas read an article in the nwsppr yest that there was this "WANTED" guy in wellington region, and apparently he broke into this house in Kelburn (the area where i live) and tied up this lady and sexually assaulted her. Ohhhkkaaayy..hehe..we were kinda freaked, and no more walking home alone at night!! And i was thinking how when go home end of this year, i'll have to be totally careful again. Just afraid that I forget, and ...erm..ok..lets not think about it..

(ps: mum, if ur reading this, dont worry, I'll take care of myself! LOL!)

2. I love the traffic in NZ!! We stand on the pedestrian crossing (Zebra crossing) and anyone will stop for u! Even a whole bus will stop for u! How cool is that! this is what i call COURTESY!! And yeah, no bikes zooming around! I barely see any bikes here! And so, when I cross the road, I barely look out for zooming bikes which comes out of every unseen corner! I was just mentioning to my friend how i would be jay-walking in Msia, cos im so used to just waliking on the streets, not looking out for bikes. Hmm...personal note: Remember to look out for crazy motorbikes when i go back to Msia if i dont want to be run down by one! Haha!!

3. SPRING!!! but it's no fun! I prefer winter! I actually think it's colder now than winter! Cos during winter, we have alternate days of sun and clouds. Now, it has been 4 days in a row of really soft drizzle and gloom!! And the wind is blowing so much stronger now! Arggh...I dont want to be blown off!! oh well, there are flowers to compensate for the grotty weather. But still...hmm...welly indeed has delayed weather syndrome!

Currently listening to: Running Back to You-Altered Frequency
Currently feeling: Zzzzzz

*Wheeeeeeeee!!! I'm such a happy and satisfied girl!! GUESS WHAT?!

I HAD MOONCAKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MOONCAKES!! WHOPEDEEDOO!! MOONCAKES!!!

Ben sent Jas 2 mooncakes, one pandan and one lotus double yolk. Hehehe, I love her.....See..food makes me happy...gosh...that's quite sad...oh well.. hehe...I'm just soo happy. She shared some with Micheal and Ushma, and Micheal was sooo farney, cos he's quite erm..inadventurous. I had fun telling ppl the story bhind mooncakes and lanterns, not that i know it that well. LOL! Happy...I'll be a happy girl going to zzz....

Tracy: No i dont like Darwinian theory. Well, cos we only very briefly touched it, and it was just pure memorising for us. But yeah, we learnt the glycolysis and Kreb's stuff, and that whole lot last trimester. Oh well, it's over...

Ping!!!: Hehehe..u'r sooo nice!! erm..call me around my Sunday afternoon alright? after lunch my time? I dont really know what's the time difference lerh...Ok, we're 4 hours ahead of Msia. Or if not, just call when ur free, i'l prob be in, if not, leave a msg, i'll call u back.

I'm going for Christian Union Ball tomorrow evening!! I'm kinda excited actually. the hairdo, and dressing up! hehe...Well, no date, but it'l be fun with my whole bunch of friends. But it's only at the Mezzanine floor of Rutherford  House (at the Pipetia Campus). But it'l be fun, never been to a ball, only been to proms...

It's soooo awesome today! The sun is sooo brilliant!!! Soo pretty and sooo warm!! I could actually feel the heat frm the sun! Usually, the sun only serves as light, not heat..Haha...I was just telling Jas this seems to be mock summer. Everyone was clad in skirts, single layers and bright colours and jandals! I joined in the fun of course, wore skirt and jandals, and took superly slow strolls to class, allowing the sun to soak deep into my epidermis. Too much Bio. Lol! After lunch just now, Jas and I even took a walk on the rolling hills of Botanical Gardens. Sadly the roses at the Rose Garden hasnt bloomed yet. The poppies were pretty though. Havnt seen any tulips yet though. Or mayb i wasnt observant. Haha...And in tribute to Spring 05, i decided to grace my room with some flowers:

Arent they soo pretty? hehe

And yeah, here's a pic of the CU Ball i went for last saturday. Nothing to shout about, but it was a good opportunity to dress up and feel pretty. Haha! The Ball was quite sad, cos there were quite few ppl, and the DJ only used a laptop to mix the songs! ???!! Plus, apparently it's culture here that they play clubbing music at Balls. I found it totally wrong to be dancing to R&B in my dress!! But oh well, considering that most of us dont go with dates, it's prob not so right to be playing ballroom songs.

oh crap!!!  i dont know how to do my stupid Chem weekly assignment!! Crap man..ish!! So geram....and my eyes are half closed d!! *slaps own face* Wake up!!! Gosh...chamn d lah...and it's due tomorrow!! Argghh..And i have a Disease Lab test on Wed......arrgghghghglkeadsl;'kfjadklgfhakjghakjngakjfndalfkaoe

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ok...cool down..im gonna zzz for a while, hopefully i'l wake up..LOL! Feel like im gonna just fall off my chair and fall asleep...ZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz

Im soo bored...I need to do smth..hmm..mayb i shd go and hav a shower...or get a nap...but i want to celebrate my liberty..liberty frm the stupid assgmt that was due at 5pm just now. Turned out that everyboday else couldnt do it as well..We all went for 2 Chem tutorials, and we managed to dig some answers out frm the lecturer and the tutors. Haha..so yeah..Thank God! I feel so free now, despite the fact that i have a test tomorrow..haha..a whole load off my shoulders..Haha..was just thinking, by the end of this trimester, I would ahve finished about 20+ assignments, and 10 lab reports...all in 12 weeks!! haha...But oh well, I like the course im taking and the stuff im learning.

And guess what? We dissected a sheep's heart-lungs in our ANimals Lab just now. It was fun! Not as stinky as those rats. It was fun playing with the red blob. And the lungs were so smooth and jelly-like, and i was just thinking, if it was scented with Rapsberry or smth, i would have been tempted to eat it. Haha..freak! just random..

ohya, weather..hehe...how sad am i? hahah...but the weather was really great today. Not as sunny, but lovely white clouds with blue sky. And the moon is perpetually there! Morning, afternoon, and night. Prob cos we're near the poles.

bored...Dont feel like studying..Shd do that after dinner.

Hmm..was just reading ann's blog..And was just wondering that Aster never really mastered the art of blogging eh? Sad..would love to hear about her experiences there. I also noticed that Tracy is a faithful blogger now. Woohoo!! hehe...Cheers to u ppl who updates constantly. It gives me reason to procrastinate, i.e. now...

HaPpiE SwEet 16th SiS!!!!!

*yawn*

Im bored...was blog hopping. Ping, i like your friend, Charmaine's blog. Dont know her, but she writes really well. She's in my Favourites list. Ok, Im soo supposed to be drumming all the parasites that I learnt frm Bio of Disease into my head. Test is coming up in a weeks time, and I have about 10 lectures to catch up!! It's actually quite a fun course, ignoring all the awkward and gross pictures put up by the lecturer of enlarged colon, heart and all other sorts. But learning about disease also made me realise that we are susceptible to all sorts of parasites!! Urrggghh....*shrugs*

Taebo was fun today, the lady was nice. And the sun was brilliant, though it didnt last long. Went to the slopes on Botanical Garden with Elaine, thinking that we could soak up the sun, and do some studying, and of course snacking. But silly enough, the wind is pretty strong today, so the sun didnt last for long. Dang!! so we took a walk to the Rose Garden instead. ANd took a walk around the greenhouse cos they had and Orchid display. Pretty cool. Ok, I've decided that the flower I like most are Orchids, complicated and intricate. Lovely!

Poppies:

Orchids:

OK..I'm gonna catch 40 winks, before I actually start work. I miss Dan...Aihz..havnt been talking in a while, he's been pretty busy with Encounter, and I was pretty busy last week as well.

   Dang!!!!!!!! Urrgghhh!!!!

I woke up to super bright sunshine, and some rays even got into my room! (yeah, im unlucky enough to have a room that barely gets direct sunshine). And yeah, so I thought it will be a great day, and as I was walking to class this morning, I was just admiring the blue blue sky, with some clouds on the edges of the horizon. And i had a sneaky feeling that the clouds were gonna take over, and gloom the day, as it did on Saturday. But anyway, I shoved the negative thought aside and  happily skipped to class (not really ) in my jandals and linen pants and a thin sweater.

But to my horror, when i got out of class just now, the weather totally took it's turn! Darn!!!! ISh Ish Ish!It's totally raining, and hailing as well. Ish!!! Babi! Now I cant go back for lunch. Dont really want to be drenched, plus I have another lecture to go. But I want LUNCH!!! ish...babi babi babi. So much for rejoicing when the lecturer ended his lecture a taed earlier. Babi!!!!!!

Editted: (1.28pm) And dang again! The sun is out now! But im half an hour away frm my lecture. Plus, dining hall would be closed now. Cis Cis Cis man!! Cant the weather make up her mind!!

And babi..something is wrong with the time for tabulas lar!! Help!! I manually changed the time, but then, my entry just vanished.

Currently feeling: Frown!

Mei!! I dreamt bout you! And sharon, and i think aiping was in there as well..hahha..I dreamt that i was asking you guys to go for some "Mismatched Slippers Party"!!! Hahahahahha...so farney!! but sadly, myy mismatched slipper broke d..

Darn!!! Crap man...urrgghh..just finished a stupid Disease test! All i wrote was crap.urrgh..stupid ppl make us memorise all the stupid life cycles of stupid parasites! Arrggghh....and i have another lab test in 1.5 hours time. Great...wat a great way to end my week. I hate fridays, cos my day is superly long, and yet I love it, cos it means the weekend is coming. Irony. adklfadsm,gnfdbkfgkljdfklsfjdsaf...ramble tamble, grumble..babi..Oh well, at least i have 2 parties to look forward to this weekend. Having Awesome Flat Night again!! THis time at Joel's place, and the theme is 80s. What do they wear in 80s?? Apparently they have the worst fashion sense? Help! ANd then we have our AB Hse Theme dinner on sunday. Pirates...ladidadida...

OOooh.."Thank God I'm so blessed and I love dan so much" (darling u shd understand this )..haha.cos he gave my mum 2 mooncakes,  one to be kept for me. In the freezer lah! Im desperate...for mooncakes...hmmm..yea, i know what i shd do next week, considering that it's the only week i do not have any tests. I should actually start compiling a list of food I want to get when im home. Dont want to miss anything out lo!

Ok, God is so radical! Jesus was soo radical. I'm struggling with grace and forgiveness. And was looking for reaffirmation, exhortation, encouragement fromt he Bible so that i'll be able to do what is totally agaisnt my will. And I came across Romans 12.

Do not conform any longer to the paterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of you mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what GOd's will is-his good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:2

ANd then further on, it was talking about Love. And I found so many bizarre things taht we're called to do. I mean, bless those who persecute you, and not curse them back? Do not repay wrongdoing with wrongdoing? Do not take revenge? Feed your enemy? I mean, it's all agaisnt the logic sense of the human mind! And yet this is all good, because we're called to take Jesus as an example. WE're not called to be meek, and weak, and allow ppl to trample over our heads. but instead, we're called to build these characters because they are what matters to God.

You know many times i yell to God, "change me, and make me new. Make me be more like Christ, and teach me how to put a smile on your face. I long to please you all the days of my life". And many times, tests come, for me to exercise patience/love/forgiveness so taht I may grow in character. And yet, many times these chances slip by just like taht because I was not bothered. But it's so hard to jsut forgive someone when the other paty seemed so wrong! Even harder when I have to purpose in my heart to show grace and to forgve, before the person is sorry about it. Many times I'm tempted to lash hurtful words, jsut so that they taste their own medicine. And then, I can turn away smugly because i've done myself some justice. And yet, we're called to do something totally opposite from that! How hard is that? And you may ask why do i even bother then? I sometimes question myself too. But I figure, it's because there is this deep longing in me, that want to follow after what is pure and white. Despite the evil and corruption that prevails around us these days, I believe that we, inherently want to be good.

Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelryand fine clothes. Instead it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauthy of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.