hmm..proms over..and now, it's studies, studies, studies and studies!! asrrgghh...ok, got quite a lot done. Sent in my IMU application today. Hmm..silly me, filled in some part of it wrongly, and i got really really worried coz first, the form costed a 100 bucks (!!), and apparently it's staTED that it'l be put thru the scanner. But anyways, I used liquid paper in the end. Felt so stupid and blind! anyway, that's over.

Had our favourite Pan Mee for lunch just now. Yumm...we usually have it on fridays, and next friday will be the last time we'll have pan mee together. Cos we'll be having study break the following week. Whao! how time flies! It's been almost a year since i started HSC. oklah, 10 months. Where did all those months went?! Ohwell, but i guess this year had been an eventful year for me.Very eventful. Many things happened and well, i guess that's what always happens during those transition years rite? Ok, what am i doing man! reflecting so soon?! There are like 3 more months to go, b4 the year ends!

Anyways, i've been meaning to put this up, but never had the time:

The Measure of Your Love

No scale big enough to measure your grace
No mind smart enough to perceive your mercy
No sea vast enough to contain your overflowing love
But, by your Son, we catch a glimpse of that love
Through your precious Son, we taste of your goodness
And through your only Son, we drown in your everlasting love.

hmm..wrote this on Tuesday, while i was doing my devotions. Well, to admit, i've been kinda lagging in spending time with God, coz of activities and all, but that night, i jsut sat down and meditated on Ps. Albert's sunday message about the act of worship. And as i was reading Psalm 95 & 96, I began to see that there are hundred and one reasons for us to worship Him! and my heart overflowed at the immense measure of His love for us!

ok, wana go and catch 40 winks dee...having cg tonight. Looking forward to a relaxing night and then "pia-ing" a lil after cg. Ohya, that reminds me that the Purpose Driven Walk is tomorrow. Arrghh...cant sleep in..So sad, havnt been sleeping in in ages!

ohya, tomorrow's li tings bday HapPy BUrFdAy TinG!!

Currently feeling: headache-y

If you search for good, you will find favor... you will see
everything in a new perspective.

I asked God to take away my pain.

God said, No.
It is not for Me to take away, but for you to give it up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.

God said, No.
His spirit is whole, his body is only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience.

God said, No.
Patience is a by-product of tribulations; it isn't granted, it is
earned.

I asked God to give me happiness.

God said, No.
I give you blessings, happiness is up to you.

I asked God to spare me pain.

God said, No.
Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to
Me.

I asked God to make my spirit grow.

God said, No.
You must grow on your own, but I will prune you to make you fruitful.

I asked for all things that I might enjoy life.

God said, No.
I will give you life so that you may enjoy all things.

I asked God to help me LOVE others as much as He loves me.

God said... Ahhh, finally! you have the idea.


There is nothing new under the sun. - Ecclesiastes 1:9

Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask Him. - Matthew 6:8

So, say, "Speak, LORD, for your servant is listening." - 1 Samuel 3:9-
10

After the earthquake came a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire.
And after the fire came a gentle whisper. - 1 Kings 19:12

Though the Lord gave you adversity for food and affliction for drink,
He will still be with you to teach you. You will see your teacher
with your own eyes, and you will hear a voice say, "This is the way;
turn around and walk here." - Isaiah 30:20-21

So, say, "Speak, LORD, for your servant is listening." - 1 Samuel 3:9-
10


got this from some forwarded mail. Thought it was good to help us see things frm God's perspective.

Can anyone be more childish? Can anyone be more rude? Can anyone be more unprofessional?

My day was kinda spoilt. Hmm…whatever it is, I’d rather not dwell in it. And I better not mention names here, not for fear that that person would be reading thins. But it’s just that I do not wish to slander nor to gossip, nor to create bad impressions. Well, I guess I’m just trying to vent out some stuff here. Whatever it is, God please give me patience. He has really been working in me in this area, and well, I guess, this is one of the ways how our mysterious and awesome Father in heaven works.

I asked God to grant me patience.
God said, No.
Patience is a by-product of tribulations; it isn't granted, it is earned.

My gosh, imagine how hard it was for Jesus to love and die for those who persecuted Him?! It’s almost impossible for me to even bear with those who get on my nerves! Nonetheless, we’re called to be like Christ. Even in this lil things. “loving your neighbour as yourself”. I did manage to say a prayer for that person, and for myself, after calming down my thoughts. Yeah I know, some ppl might think I must be crazy. It’s only natural to think so. Well, I guess that’s what sets us apart form the rest. And to make a difference!

As Im writing this, Im beginning to feel better and more sensible. In times like this, we’ll just have to do what we know is right. We should not tolerate with our emotions and pride. All praise be to Jesus who understands what we go thru.

Ohya, had pan mee for the last time today with coll friends, under the tree. And just as we finished, it started to pour. Well, today was the last day of college. A few lecturers like Ms. Leela started our lesson today by giving a speech..ahhah…bt I have to put my hats off for her, one of the most strict and dedicated teachers I’ve got. Very effective too.

Ohya ohya, it was so cool today. Most the HSC students wore red today. Well, we pre-planned it. And some of the sporting lecturers joined in the “uniform” too. Had some photo-taking sessions too. It’s was so chunn, college was full of ppl in red. Kinda like Chinese New Year.

Currently feeling: feeling red!

arrghghh..geram-ness...loaded some prom pics and last day of college pics halfway, and something went wrong..i think tabulas smth wrong!! ish-ness!!..waste my time saja..hmm..anyway, maybe it's bcos my gallery is full d..but it doesnt make sense. It doesnt seem as if i have 50 pics in tabulas...hmm...or maybe i do..

damn..it happened again! uploaded my pics but in the end, "couldnt find Page"...wahlau....geram saja!

newayz, ppl, blex!! we've got mail. Snail mail, all the way frm US from ping!! it's a halloween card. Took it form ap's hse yesterday. Cute! umm...will see how we can pass it ard lah. It should not be a problem for sharon and jo, but the rest, i dunno how dee...su ann, tracy, ying..hahah..i dunno how d...hmm..mei, mayb u can scan it?...

thanx ping!!!

sillyness! the 6 more pprs are spread out in almost a month! but i guess it's quite good in one way cos we get to do last minute revision. anyways, just finished english ppr in the morning.

ping! jealous nia! ishness man! u are enjoying urself and we're here, stuck with books! urrgghh..somehow, i think my interest for studying has faded a lil. well, not that i loved it last time, but now, there's less semangat! crap lerr!

yay to ying n tracy's update! ohya, we were talking bout going to genting during the holls, sometime when most blex can make it kua..

ting! update lerhh..though i saw u like last friday nia, but still, dont know wats happening to u most of the time. Ahahha..not like ur gonna read this..

anywayz, cant wait for this stupid exam to be over! then i'll be free!

ok, better get back to studying! cant seem to remeber chemistry lerr.,..so many things!

arrgghhh..crap crap crap..im in such a terrible mood now. just came back frm college not too long ago. Math Ext 1 was terrible! And i didnt even have the time to read the last question. It goess without saying that i left the whole question blank! 12marks..out the window, into the monsoon drain! crap man...i did so terrbly for this paper. 1st time in my life i actually found math kinda hard. Let's just hope i dont fail. OK lah, i wont. but still! die liao lah.

Dan fetched me back just now. I had a drink while he took his lunch. Hmm..thank God for him. He's been comforting me, and reassuring me. And I am feeling somewhat better, because there's some1 to tell you "It's gonna be ok". But above all, i believe all reassurance and comfort comes frm God. Thank God that we can run to Him at anytime of the day, for whatever reason.

Was reading the bible just now. John 15:7 If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given to you. (this is Jesus speaking)yeah, and i was thinking, "Jesus, please miraculously let me pass my math paper with flying colours" haha..."Jesus, please show me what im supposed to do with my future. Pharmacy? Biomed Sc? Accountancy?(haha) hmm..mission field? or WHAT??!" But then again, we are asked to remain in him, and to ensure that his word remains in us. Thus, if His word is in us, then we wont be simply asking for things that we just want. Well, i guess my eyes were opened to see that all i should ask for in His Name is "Jesus, what is the field that you want me to serve you in? God, what is it that you want me to do, so that I will bring a smile to your face?" well, of course we can come asn ask him for the many needs (and wants ) in our life, but above all, if we ask within His word, "it will be given to you"

I just checked my mail. I got into Tasmania U, but it's only for BioMed Sc. not, Pharmacy. and apparently they sent the offer letter by post last week. Well, iu guess i'll be receiving it sometime soon. Well, im not even sure if I got the 25% waive. Without that, i guess studying in Tasmania would be just another dream. Unless, somehow, God opens a door. And i received mails frm Wellington,NZ and ANU, Aust saying that they received my application. But the outcome is still not confirmed. Aihzz....I was really hoping i could get the Pharcmacy course in Tasmania. And my parents were considering that I can get a loan or smth. But..aihzz...maybe thats not what God intended for me afterall. To think of it, it's kinda mysterious and it's like God's keeping you in suspense. Im really wondering what i'll be 10 years down the road. Ok, that's a lil to long. I dont even know what will become of me in the coming year!! Well, i guess, that's what living by faith is all about!

I do not know what i'll be, but it doesnt matter cos I know that GOd knows what is best, and surely, by hook or by crook, if i remain steadfast, he will open a door, and i will be doing what im meant to do.

Well, on the lighter side, i have another week before my physics paper. if you consider that "lighter" . anyways, aiyah, jjust forget it lah. It's over after all. And as the typical saying goes, "dont cry over spilt milk"

Mei, you scanned ap's halloween card yet? scan k, since ppl like ying and tracy can see it, since they're online mre often now.

Ping, ahahah...you really got me luffing yesterday, about your contacts!! ahahahahha.. lawak man! but that's so you!..i told my mum, and she was like, "that's typically ap"..but cute leh..

Currently feeling: blahh