just finished my accounts test. Left slightly earlier coz my li ting whom i usually follow, left even earlier. BUt mana tau, when i came out half an hour later, she left dee...but i hope she's ok lah..anywayz, to while away my time and not to mention release some stress plus merdeka a lil', i shall update me blog!! ahahah..

past few days has been quite stressful, but predictable. what else do you expect during exam seasons?? but i guess i've never learnt my lesson about burning the midnight oil! certainly does no good to you concentration power the next morning! this happened for physics and chemstry paper kay! anywayz, it's gonna be over by this time next tuesday! you bet im counting down to that day! have been missing so much fun! MIssed youth twice, captain ball-handball-netball-watever twice, miss crapping with my dear fren (ping) who's leaving so very soon!!

fasting has been good so far. And mind you, im FASTING not DIETING! dont see the need in "dieting'' if you guyse get what i mean! but i have to admit that i've been lagging a lil in spending time with God. DO my devotions and all, but i guess i've allowed my studies to take over a lil...gona go back n meditate on his word today..

woohoo,.,,ai ping's party on next friday..glasd ther;s a party, but not glad she;s chao-ing...=(

gtg...

1.45am

Wednesday (11 Aug 2004)

Feeling: frustrated coz tabulas is down, hot coz I don’t have aircon and it’s so humid! Sleepy coz I did not sleep since I got back from “merdeka-celebration” after my last trials paper this morning. Very very happy coz im feeling contented and on-top-of-the-world (ok lame, I know)


Artist: Vitamin C
Song: Graduation (Friends Forever)

And so we talked all night
About the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be
When we turn 25
I keep thinking
Times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now
Cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back
Will our jokes still be funny
Will we still remember everything we learned in school
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man
Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's time to fly
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now
Can we survive it out there
Can we make it somehow
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's time to fly

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends forever

Even as I read this lyrics of this song that was sent by my friend through mail, I felt like crying. Well, I guess I was overwhelmed by the nostalgia. But even as I reflect on think about the past year, I just felt this funny feeling in me. Imagine! One year ago! We (blex & other close friends) stressed out by SPM, and yet at the same time, we were having fun, “enjoying” the last year of our secondary school life. It’s just so sad to think that those times will never be re-lived again..it just struck me that “That’s it! This is it Janice Cheng! This is just the beginning of a new path which leads you to the many other paths one would eventually undertake in life” Aihz…I know I know, I’m beginning to sound a lil like Robert frost in “The Road Not Taken”. It’s really so “sad-dening”

Those crazy sleepovers we used to have. Those fun movie marathons we have. (But it turns out that we only watch 1 show coz everyone either fell asleep or simply lost interest!) Remember Form3-PMR?? the night right after the last paper? The sleepover at AP’s house. The nail-polishing we did on those who fell asleep (su ann..ahahha)

Those ambitious dreams we hada in Form 3: to produce a Blex Magazine!! Ahahah..To think that our dear honorary editor (aiping) is leaving soon. Hmm…Ping, you have an unfinished job here! Okler, we are ALL to be blamed. But that surge of determination and positive-ness was fun! And imagine, “Da Blex” were kinda like a sorority club..ahahah..ok, a lil exaggerated, but still, I’m sure all of us felt really proud to be a Blek rite? And the WEBSITE!!! (www.geocities.com/da_blex) Thanx to our web-pros, MeiHui and Renee (*ahem *ahem) it’s still there…and I guess we’ll keep this there as long as we can kayz? See if our kids/grandkids have the golden chance to view them!

The thick and thins that we went thru...well, we did have our not-so-nice times too, when typical backbiting, gossiping and misunderstanding happen. But, as I look back, all these will be the memories, that will, I guess stick to me for life, well, at least till I get “nyanyuk” Ahahah..

And this reminds me, remember how we came about with the “blex”..and when we were all either in Jed or Intan. When we used to sit on the floor at the back of the class, during our combined moral class. Tan Jun Jong!!! Muahahah…and Mei, I’m sure u remember (oh shoot! I forgot our PK1’s name!! That nice guy!) ohya, MR. Teh who saw us sitting at the back, and pointed at us while giving us a killer stare!

When our first blek “ppk-ed” us to kl (u should know who you are)…and the surprise-evergreen laurel buffet we organised for her? And now, everyone is scattered everywhere!!

And Traplex 2001!!! Whao…not much needs to be said since, I’m sure, everyone at the camp will still remember it vividly.

Hmmm…everything’s coming back like a rain-gutter being unclogged. Ok, that’s umm…not too nice an analogy, but you guys get what I mean.

This reminds me, remember blex’s secret codes? The specs and contacts and broken specs and mended specs?!! Ahaah…imagine, we’re still using it! Ying is at least!..ahahah…we’l remember that for life k, and when we meet each other when we’re really old, we can tell each other about our “Old Pair Of Specs” (muahahah..)

That’s all for now…I guess this reminiscence will go on forever, and the only place that can contain all these memories is the Heart. And it always will remain in mine.

i've actaully lost track of the number of times i cried. Though it hasnt really hit me that Ai PIng has left...aihz..but im glad that she's now safe in NY. aihz aihz aihz aihz...

when we sent her off, amidst all the well-wishes, photo-taking, hugging and goodbyes, i just stood there, behind, watching, obesering, trying to take in everything. Well, part of me just didnt want to take part in it. I guess, i just shut-off-ed and stepped back coz i didnt want to feel the hurt and loss. Ok, I know ap only going away to study. I couldnt say anything to her. COuldnt find the right things to say, knowing that this is it! she'll be leaving to the other end of the world in another minute!

But then again, ap did leave as AIPING the typical.(haha, i know she doesnt like it wen ppl say it's "typically aiping", but im gonna do it anyway ) we saw her off, and like sue lynn, we saw her walking down that departure aisle with her aunt and uncle who were going to NY with her. And everyone sorta "bersurai-ed". BUT, after like a minute or so, we saw ai ping running out towards us. AHAHH...she was shouting someting about her mum n dad or smth liek that, and for a moment i thought she didnt want to leave afterall. AHAHAH...silly thought, i know! But it turned out that se was not allowed to bring in the Swiss Army multipurpose knife. So, she asked us to pass it back 2 her parents. aahah...typical of ai ping


ok, enough about that.

gonna follow ap's/chiuyen's style. Here goes:

tuesday
had a minor accident. Kissed some guy's butt. I mean the car..ahahah...was sort of in a rush. Thank God there was no dent. Only a small scratch in his car, and my PROTON logo came off. He asked me to pay him a lil so he can go patch it up, but guess waht?! i only had RM 13! so, walked off. leaving the thing. he must have been an angel sent by God to teach me a lesson..ahahah...didnt get scolding frm mum either. lesson learnt: dont drive too closely others' back.

monday
sent ap off. started volunteer service at adventist. I worked at the pharmacy department and it was qute fun, but a lil boring at times. got rashes which looked like mosquito bites due to allergy to something. Felt like a cow. (dont ask me why..lazy to xplain..ahahah) visited the doc and got soem anti-hystamine and cream.

sunday
went out for supper with friend. Had "thong sui" at jelutong. went for netball, but was so tired and i barely sweat coz i was so lazy to run..]


well,it's holidays for me this week, but i dont think i have much time to enjoy either. Have to submit uni/scholarship applications and have to take the IELTS test. Anyone know if i need to go for the preparatory classes? coz it's gonna coz another RM 200 for the classes itself.

aiz...headache..

Do you have a pen? you do? ok, now pretend you dont have one! So, do you need a pen for the pre-encounter? No? Yes, you do! Remember, pretend you dont have a pen. So, where can you get a pen? Get it from the encounter counter so that you can use the pen for the pre-encounter.

walked in blur-ly for pre-encounter this weekend, and Ming just statrted blabbering off bout some mind-twisting pun. Ahahah..cute huh?

anywayz, yes, encounter. Im looking forward to it. yet i do not know what to expect.

encounter:
1. God
2. Myself
3. Others

anywayz, im really really praying that God will prepare me mentally, physically, and most importantly physically. That i may b mouldable and receptive to the convictions of the Holy Spirit. God, prepare me at this moment, and help me to have a soft spirit to change into the person you intend me to be. Lord, let this be the start of the pruning trimming You're about to do in my life.

Well, I'll be committing my time to God the whole of tomorrow. i guess it's just good to be still and just get in tune with His frequency.

hmm..other than the encounter, i've been quite lazy. After volunteering service at Adventist in the morning, i went home and slept my whole afternoon off! Have to really sit down and chart out my possible options after coll. really have no idea, and im barely groping in the dark! hAve to "kau timm" IELTS. anyone have any idea, where it's best to take that , and should i go for the clsses? it's optional. Will i be able to get 6.0 n above, coz the schship im aplying for rewquires that! English is not my forte lerr...

next week, 3rd sem starts! darn..but, im missing my frens...

Currently listening to: glory of love..such a chunn song!
Currently reading: piercing the darkness
Currently feeling: sleepy but hyper...ahah

blessed, set free, loved, forgiven, forgave, received, shared, revealed, realised, deeply grateful,..

I have so so much to talk about the encounter. SO much to share. Well, i was truly blessed by it, and as pastor said, this should be a milestone in my life, our lives.

Im still trying to get used to getting back to my normal life. But truly, one thing that makes all the difference is that im totally free!! and i've been renewed from the inside out! Looking forward to life, as a whole, sort of looking out to see how i can apply what i;ve learnt at the encounter. Tests and trials wil surely come, and that's when we can actually put our words to practise and to actually put our knowledge into actions.

really have3 to get back to studying as madly as i did for the trials coz my finals about 2 months away! this 3rd semester is only 7 weeks!! imagine!...how time flies man...

I dont really have time to update, wil do so soon.

ahah..playying minesweeper online with su lin..quite fun..eheh..in fact, its kinda addictive..just came back from supper after youth. Had supper at farlim, n drove home with a stomach ache, probably becauise the food was unhygienic.

Hmm..there's gonna be a battle of sexes tomoorrow. Football comp at the beach..ahahah..not sure how its gonna turn out. Hopefully it turns out alright. actually, it's kinda funny, coz im a girl and im supposed to organise a FOOTBALL comp!!. Plus im not the kind of gurl who watches football! ...but it's good experience lah..cant wait to see the guys in sarongs!..ahahah

hmm..im not sure if i should go for the prayer meeting at masyarakat penyayang tomorrow..hmm..will see if i can drag anyone to go with me..
ok..wana zz d..