If only there were to more than 24 hrs to a day!!

I barely have enough time to do whatever i have to do!! DOnt even have time for myself to laze around and procrastinate!! aih..

In fact, im running late for my english class now!

How i wish the world would just stop spinning fo a while!

Loook at the bird's of the air, they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
Matt 6:-26-27

Well, this morning while i was reading the Bible, i came across this scripture. It's like God is speaking to me!! I mean, it was just yesterday that i was complaining that i do not have enough hours to a day, and then..today, he gave me this scripture!! Amazing huh?
Well, i guess i'll have to learn to be more carefree and take each day as itself. And i also have to learn to lean on Him.

Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you. 1 Pet 5:17

The main reason i'm worrying so much is coz I'm having an interview for Renong/UEM scholarship tomorrow, but, i haven't prepared anything! And according to esther, it's a very formal interview. Argghh.i'm already feeling the nervous juices churning in me!! NO, think positive! I can do it, "sap sap sui", If God is for me, who can be against me? Yes!! i can do it..no doubt, i'll probably be having a sleepless night tonight!!

Woke up at 7 am. Fetched my mum to work because i had to take her car. Went back home at 8am, continued my beauty sleep. Then went for interview.

Yeah!!it's O-V-E-R!! ahahah.The interview was ok lah, kinda relaxed i guess. That guy was quite nice to talk to, but he interviewed me right before he had lunch, so i hope it doesnt affect the interview. Yeah, so anyway, sometimes, he pauses, and look at my stuff, and once he stopped so long, i decided to talk. I was like, "i'm very involved in church activities", and he went on to ask me bout what donomination i come from etc etc. And then he asked me what is the difference between Catholic and protestant. I was like " God please help me!" Btw, he's a Malay. So, we talked about Martin Luther & Calvinism. I felt it was kinda weird lah, considering that he's a Malay. And he said he read a little bout these stuff.

Anyway, i felt so calm and confident when i went there. But then, it the interview was delayed by 1hour, so, all the confidence i mustered soon died down, not to mention that it was freezing-cold in the waiting room. Thank god it's over now, and whether i'll get it or not, it's up to Him dee lah.

Dear Diary,

I have finally gotten back my Internet connection at home! Finally. So, i'm on an 'online-spree'. well, tonnes of homework still untouched, but i just dont feel like doing it. I'm xtremely sleepy now, but anth half of me tells me to stay awake! bet you i'll be dozing off in my physics and english class tomorrow! and i have malaysian studies class 2morrow, which means i have 2 stayback in coll..aih..

but, yayz to fri n cellgroup!!

Currently feeling: cranky

finally had a chance to sleep thru the morning. Only woke up at around 11.30am this morning. Lazed around a lil' then vacuumed n mopped the floor. Aih, my sis always escapes that job!

Got scolding frm my mum, for always being busy, blah and blah...then went to gurney with reen, her sisters, and jen. Tujuan: buy eu wye's prezzie. Spent some time 'sniffing" around till our noses were blocked coz we planned to buy him perfume. Do u call perfume, "perfume" for guys?or izit cologne?sorry, im not a scent pro. we then went to starbucks, got a drink, and took some coffee beans to smell.. got something to do with taking away all the smell of perfume..or something like tat lah.

then, went to youth for worship practice. And then, for once, i reached home b4 10pm after youth coz we did not go for supper.

Currently feeling: sleepy

ok, I am so so sleepy and blur now. Just woke up from a 15-minute nap in a library which sounded more like a fish market! I dreamt just now, but as usual, i cant remember it. I practically nodded off at chemistry and physics class just now. The lecturers' voices sounded like it got further n further away. Especially during physics, we were learning bout the galaxy: the birth of stars. Well, it is an interesting chapter, but i was practically seeing stars coz Mr. Leong was so boring! Any suggestions of what to do when you are having really heavy eye lids, but the lecturer in front is some really strict guy and you cant afford to even close your eyes for more than 5 seconds?? I tried doodling, but it did not help much.
*mental note: MUST remember to bring sweets for my next physics class!!

Anyway, UY's bday party yesterday was really great! Games we played like "toi" and "jengket" brought back fond memories of my primary school life, where nothing evolving around me seemed to bother me. Ohya, the food was very nice. I especially loved the pudding and A.Cheng See's chocolate cake.

1st assessment starts next week, and i havent started studying anything. Better start studying dee. But i think this assessment shoulnt be that bad kua, considering that it only covers very few topics.

Guess what?!!! of all days, im having malaysian studies on this saturday!! which is 14th feb 2004. which is V-day!! Aih..imagine one and a half hours of learning useless things which we will never apply in our lives! you know wat? V-day should be made a public holiday man.just when it falls on a saturday, i have to go to college! maybe i should skip it, or maybe i should just be an and go

i am so awake!
i learnt my lesson liao, i slept slightly earlier last night. and i could pay attention in physics! chemistry was kinda fun today. we learnt bout the cracking process.

but i dread MUET class later.

to all Gilmore Girls fans like me, i've posted some of their pics in the gallery.go check it out.

ok, im late for class again. yes, as usual...

Pasta
I feel so bloated now..had a delicious dinner. I had spagetthi with Malt drink. (though those two are not ideal combinations, nevertheless..) Not badla, my dad can pass cooking meals. I still have dessert waiting for me. Yea, yea..i remember, gluttony is a sin.

MUET
Yay, today was my last class for MUET. Well, this 1-month-plus course wasnt really beneficial. They didnt even teach us the speaking part. I mean, considering that my mum paid RM200 over for this whole thing. But, im more than glad to be able to go home at four on Tuesdays and Thursdays.

IICCF
Tomorrow, i have CF. Well, INTI's CF is okaylah, we still dont know each other that well yet. But one weird thing is, we only have like about 15 regular members, but they want to split us up into 3 cellgroups. Then we are supposed to meet separately with our cg n all, but, ..aih..i dunnolah. I did tell them that we should at least get everyone together and get to know each other 1st. But, this cg thing seems like their "tradition" or something.

Finally
Ohya, today, i finally visited my college's basketball court! Not my fault i didnt go see it earlier, but it was so far from the rest of te blocks. Neway, the court was so nice. Very new. Way better than the court i played in the last time. C-lah, one day, i should drag my frens to go and play.

Gilmore Gurls
Yay, there's GG today!! I cant wait to watch it.

yesterday i went for cg in the music room. Hey, the music room nhot so bad lah, considering that there is a complete set : piano, electric guitar, drums. Anyway, after Toastmaster 's Club meeting, i went for cf meeting. Well, the worship was quite good. But sometimes, worshipping with ppl you dont know are kinda hard. or is it just me? We then had some ice-breakers.I won and got an ice-cream!! ehehe..some word game.

guess wat?! this guy(who's a worker at INTI) told us about the '40 days of purpose' programme.

He's frm Georgetown Baptist Church i think.They're gona do it too. Anyway, he started to tell us bout it and we're gona being doing this series. Yay! I was actually planning to go through the book again somewhere at the end of this year. But since they are doing it, "great!"..
1.worship
2.fellowship
3.ministry
4.discipleship
5.evangelism

Just now, i went out for lunch with my friends at the AKI pancake shop..mmm...yummy.....and im so sleepy now. ah..nothing is better than a nap after lunch..but.....

just when i felt so enthusiatic to study, the lights went out at 10 sumthing yesterday nite.So, i guess it's not my fault that i didnt study yesterday. So, 1st time in umpteen years, i slept at 11 pm. Yeah, my body sure needed the rest.

My mind then went on to wonder, "does GOd, sometimes have to put 'blackouts' in our lives in order to stop us and get our attention". Well, many a times, we tend to get too caught up in our activities. We get up in the morning, say a prayer, and off to school/college we go. It wouldnt be until before bed, that we "connect" to God again. SOmetimes,i personally feel like we always take God for granted. Assuming that he will always be there waiting for us. Yes he would, but, we on our part shouldnt just run to him when we have no where else to turn to.

"Dear Lord, I ask Lord that YOu will be the centre of my life, and i pray that no distractions will take my eyes off YOu. Amen."

Currently feeling: contemplative

happy burfday juGson!! happie belated burfday!, since its already like Saturday. We had fun giving him a surprise by hiding in his room..There were like, i think 30 sumthing ppl hiding in the dark in his room. It was so fun!

Ohya, Happie V-day everyone!! Hope you all have a fun and wonderful day with whoever you all going out with.

I'm looking forward to a pleasant surprise from the "Boys of fireBRANDS". watever they are organising, it better be good man.

Tonight was...GREAT!! It was a very pleasant surprise. And it certainly made my night, no,our (fireBRANDS girls) night. Everything was great, the food, the presentations, the songs, poems, flower, and not to mention the setting and the mood for the night. You guys did a great job! Well, I felt very pampered, and it was like we were treated like queens for the night, well, at least for 2 hours. All i can say is...Thank You Guys!, whether you were directly or indirectly involved in organising this. Ohya, i heard it was pastor's idea..chun huh?

Currently listening to: Daniel Bedingfield's Im Never Gonna Lleave You
Currently feeling: thankful

Everything is so uncertain. What am i going to do after college?What course am i going to do?which uni am i going to? Will i ever be able to go overseas? I must go overseas, that has been my dream since like..i was born!! But at the rate this is going,i dont think i'll have much chance. My mum certainly cant afford to send me overseas. I dont think i got the renong scholarship. I doubt if i'l get 10A1s..which means i can say goodbye to JPA schship oso dee..MAybe i shouldn't be so determined about going overseas. For all you know, God wants me to stay here. for good...argghh...

When the oceans rise and thunders roar,
I will soar with You, above the storms,
Father you are King, over the floods
I will be still, and know You are God.

well, at least it's very comforting to know that he is the Lord over our lives, no matter what.

i just finished my accounts test today. It wasnt so bad lah..i guess...and can you believe it?! we had multiple choice questions! I didnt expect them to give us this kind of questions at this level. Well, three and a half subject down, one and a half more to go..im having physics paper tomorrow, so, i think i shouldnt be here online-ing,..but...ehehhe...who cares!

Yesterday's Combined Prayer Rally was good. Well, though i have nothing to compare it to, coz i think this was my first time. But Im sure God has plans for this Island, The Pearl Of Orient.

ok, i think the blogging epidermic is at large now! Everyone under the sun seems to have a blog!! ok, let me list it down:
Blex: sharon
mei
reen

firebrands: sue
yenz
deb
ju
jen
anna
jonathan
sandra...and da list goes on..ahahh..lazy to list dee..
but it's fun lah, checking out every blog and kacau-ing there...quick!, everyone else, who has got nothing better to do, go catch the "flu"!!

Defiance
i just realised lately that being defiant is fun. not too melampau though. For instance, now, im supposed to be in the library instead of the Cyber Cafe. But then again, ahhh..im savouring every moment of procrastinating! the satisfaction of it. Ok,this is not good. But, i guess, once in a while, we have to take life easy. No point getting stressed out unnecessarily. My policy, though i usually fail to do so.

Currently listening to: evanescence's My Immortal
Currently reading: Some guy's HSC Physics2
Currently feeling: satisfied

ahah..nowadays i very shiok cross-wording english and bm. They call it word coinage. Ke-crazy-an i guess.

bored bored..i finally get to come home early frm college. I think i spend way more time in college than at home, more time with my friends than my family, more time with the com than my books.

yay, this fri got cg...

eh, da doggy cute rite?..ping, this is tribute to ur doggy!

Argghh....i just finished my physics test half an hour ago. The questions were 'answerable' but it was NOT sap sap sui. well, at least not for me lah. I didnt know how to draw one of the graphs, cos i didnt have the time to really think. The rest were okay, though i had to rush through the last few questions. I totally crapped for 'sunspots' and Mr.Einstein and Mr. Newton's theory in the formation of stars. Aih, what to do, i didnt really finish studying at home yesterday, and had to cram most of it in between classes. Or maybe it's plainly coz i answer questions at a slower rate. Well, i tend to be a perfectionist in the earlier questions,thus, wasting a lot of time, and have to rush through the oth ques.

Ok, whatever it is, it's over, ahahha...and it's FRIDAY!!! and the best part is Monday is a holiday!!....

THings to accomplish over the weekend:
Finish physics report
Go to edu fair on sat.
study math ext-1
Type minutes
Email sue lynn
Email su ann

Weekend, here i come!!!

I went for the Star Education Fair yesterday and today. Well, most of the stuff i enquired about is pharmacy, though i haven't actually made up my mind as to what im going to pursue. Im like at this crossroad, and i still dont know what i like, or what is my 'passion'. Well, i most certainly do not want to end up taking some course which i will hate.

Am i more of the Physics person, or am i the Bio person?If i decide based on results, both are about the same. However, if you ask me which one i like more, umm..im not so sure lah.Ok, lets try analysing, im the practical kind of person,which means im more 'physics'. But, i dont mind Bio, i like learning about something that we can relate to. If i decide to go the physics way, then i'll most probably end up being an engineer. But, if i decide to go the Bio route, then i'l most probably take up pharmacy or biotech. So, what do i actually want to be? i dont really favour engineering basically cos i think by the time we get out to work, there will be to many engineers around. A doctor? Nah. Yes, i know! A vet!! Yeah, but where on earth am i gonna find the financial support? They dont even offer such a course in scholarships. AIh..*Help..

In another 128 hours or so, the inevitable truth will be out! the results! I have a few more days left to dream that maybe, somehow, i'll get straight A1s. But, after that, thats it. But i guess, there's no point crying over spilt milk. But still......

Currently feeling: undecided

I had so much fun today! Never felt so free. Well, i guess the peaceful Kerachut beach played its role in giving tranquility, peace and serenity. Ok, maybe it's a little exaggerated lah, but the beach was certainly great. Well, the almost-1-hour of huff-puffs to the beach definitely paid off. Moreover, the weather was so cooperative.

However, the after-effects of a fun day is coming my way. I predict that my bones will be very much similar to un-oiled hinges for the next two days or so. And my face feels hot, now. Maybe the sunburn is taking its toll on me. Im felling kind of sick-ish , but i hope the 'ho-yan-ho'(chinese herbal drink) will take care of it!

Every ounce of energy is already drained from me. Im SO going to hit the bed now.

Argghh..another 5 days....

Currently listening to: Simple Plan's Perfect
Currently feeling: Happy yet Exhausted

We Say Thank You

All that’s good, all that’s right,
All that’s beautiful in life
All that’s pure, all that’s true,
It all begins and ends in you.
Every star, in the sky, joins in thanks and we reply

For all you are, and all you’ve been,
We say thank you once again,
For all you are, and all you’ll be
We will worship endlessly

For all you are.

well, dont ask me who sang this song, dah lah, im not so sure about the title..eheheh, typical me.

But, anyway, whenever i listen to this song, it really fills my heart with gratefulness. It really touches me that we God has so much mercy on us. Well, sometimes, we just miss the whole point that we are continually being blessed by God every single minute. We tend to feel that our life sucks, and thus, we start to be dissatisfied, and if it gets worse, we will probably doubt God. Well, in correspondence to this song is another of my favourite song: (by Chris Tomlin)

I Will Not Forget
A greatful heart i give,
A thankful prayer i pray,
A wild dance i dance before you.

A simple song i sing,
A huge bell i ring,
A life of praise
I live before You!

The three dreaded letter S-P-M
Sei liao lah! HOw??!! Another like 2 and a half days, or so. Well, i guess, there's nothing i can do about the results. After all, like Ju said, it is probably on its way to my school dee. So, I guess all i can pray is that i will be able to accept wuteva results i get. Be it good results(of course can accept lah! ) or results which are not up to my expectations. Well, thank God my parents dont pressure me, considering that i give myself enuff pressure adee. Or else, ahaha..i dare not even think of how i will be.

Well, i guess there will be another two days of sleepless nights. Yay, will be going to ping's house to stay over on friday nite. Ahahah..then we shall have a "Blex Freak-Out Night"

OK, wana go bowling at BJ to lepaskan tension d.

did not go bowling yesterday! ish..but anyway, i lepas-ed my geram in the music room, where our cf meeting is usually held. I got a chance to play the drums! Finally..ahahha..Some guy was willing to teach, so, mar good loh. Cant really coordinate well though. Thank God the music room is under ground level, so, it's not so 'malufying'.

ok, i have crazy lecturers. well, not all, but at least for chemistry and physics. My chem teacher likes to sing in class. She sings like formulae and she tells us to draw and teach structural formulae to our little sis n bros. Apparently, when we teach ppl, we learn more. Yeah, tats true, but , to little kids who wouldnt careless about where petroleum come from??ahaha...ANd my physics teacher is totally against handphone and its usage. Apparently if we use them, we are not a 'physics student', and we will definitely fail physics. ke-crazy-an!!

Parents
commandment #5..aihzz. How is it possible to obey them when they sometimes, do not even deserve it at all. How are you supposed to respect parents when they dont seem to respect you?! Well, the Good Book only says that we should obey them, and it did not mention anything about obeying those who barely deserves it! so, what are we suposed 2 do? i guess all we can do is follow what's in the Bible, after all, real life does not start now. Thank God it doesnt!!!

ok..wana go zzz in the library d..later samore got MAths Ext-1 test..

Currently listening to: Jason Mraz's U and I both
Currently feeling: confused

ke-crazy-an..yeah..tat seems to be stuck in my vocab nowadays. My coll just implemented this rule that we're not supposed to wear sleeveless shirts! well, for guys ok lah, but for gurls?!! practically 90% of my wardrobe consists of sleeveless tops la! then wat are we supposed to wear?! aihzz...guess i'll have to go to da mega sale liao. But hav to drag my mum..ehehhe..she got credit card merh...

wahh...about 30 smth hours more!! lee shyong and francis got 4 As..tambah lagi pressure..aih...how how how how how how..GOd, please help me to accept whatever results i get, and know the purpose behind it! Amen.

In Christ alone,
I place my trust,
And find my glory in the power of the cross,
In every victory,
Let it be said of me,
My source of strength,
My source of hope
In Christ alone

Well,we sang this song in cell group on friday, so, it reallly struck me that no matter what, our faith has to be set on him, and just as the song says, in every victory, my source of strength and hope is from Christ alone. I couldnt imagine what results i'll be getting if it wasnt trough divine intervention. Seriously, i've never dreamt of getting an A for my most dreaded subject-history. Well, like i told everyone else, for a person who has never gotten A2, let alone A1, in history for my entire upper secondary, it certainly must have been a miracle that i even got and A1! There can be miracles All i can say is all glory be to God. And i'm so happy! well, though it's not straight A1s, but, im more than glad d...i refuse to think about the "If Only"s.

When the teacher was announcing the names of those who got 8 As and above, the pressure was so intense man! The atmostphere in the hall is..umm..undescribable lah. Well, dear me here, was driven to tears due to the pressure (as usual lah). But my dear friend Ping, was so great! she really calmed me down a lot lah. Thanx ping!!

Well, the song, In Christ Alone kept playing in my mind. ANd i was like telling God, you know what's best for me, so, whatever it is, just help me 2 accept my results.

Ohya, congrats to all you SPM-ers our there. It;s over dee lah. So, i guess, this marks the end of another chapter of our lives! Believe it or not, im gona miss school..well, at least my friends lah..

Currently feeling: happy, grateful n sleepy