sqrewloose

You know what's worse than missing someone?

It's when you can't tell the person you miss him. In fact, you can't tell anyone.

Expressing your emotions will not change anything, instead, it might make things worse.

But within you, there's a constant blubber, you just want to let it out, tell someone, anyone.

But no one will understand. And even if they do, how can they help?

So you take a deep breath and swallow it with a gulp,

Sway with the motions of the day.

Then you return home, and regurgitate,

Into the world wide web.

Probably does not help. (it may even make things harder)

But at least now it's out there.

Somewhere.

sqrewloose

I was looking for flights on Tiger Airways, and this is what I saw under the terms and conditions. It absolutely cracked me up!

Infants under two (2) years of age at the time of travel, who do not occupy an aircraft seat are only charged S$40 or A$40 per infant per one way journey.Infants are not required to pay taxes and charges and do not qualify for any baggage allowance.

Oops.. now that I re-read it, it's not as funny anymore. Cos in skimming it, I think I mistakenly read it as: "infants do not qualify as baggage allowance". Ok, nvm.. no more baby jokes. Apparently I am known for the baby jokes, though not the gruesome ones that you hear normally. But some *ahemmy exflatmates* might beg to differ.

Anyhow, I had dinner with a few other cafe people at pastor's place, and heard about how this couple (who were there at the dinner) met each other and eventually got married. The guy, a Kiwi went on an OE to Europe, and was in Italy when he met the girl, an American who was studying classics there. They met in the Vatican! In the presence of the Pope, not quite. But she did point out that she was blessed by the Pope, along with a thousand other people though. Being a pope must be quite boring, or maybe i don't know enough about what he does. But back to the story, the boy then tagged along with the girl, and travelled with her, and then basically decided, after knowing each other on that short period of time, that if they wanted the rship to work, they would have had to commit to something. So they did a bit of a long distance together, and then eventually she moved to NZ, and they're married now. Crazy right? Only thought these stories existed in novels or in chick flicks or romantic movies.

Alright, it's 11.50pm, gotta hit the sack. Flatmate and I are keeping each other accountable, to get to bed early and rise early leading to a healthy lifestyle! =)

sqrewloose

Work's been pretty crazy, more and more work gets piled on as the days go past this week. To think that I even had half a mind to apply for leave, just to have a break. Guess that won't be happening anytime soon. Maybe after the review paper is written.

But having said that, I thoroughly enjoy work. Even though the coupling reaction that I recently carried out gave me the opposite anomer to the one that I want, I somehow find myself enjoying it. Heck.. it means I have to go back and make more starting material, and try the coupling reaction a few more times, but oh well. The work environment that I am in makes a whole lot of difference. Lab mates who are optimistic (way more optimistic than I am) and smart, and supervisors who are passionate about chemistry makes what I do more a challenge than a dread. I can tell when my supervisor is excited about what I do, because he would come running into the lab, looking for me, asking me how my reaction went, whether the building blocks coupled, and whether I made the alpha or the beta product! And then I can tell he's REALLY excited when I go in for my individual meeting to present them with NMR data which I just got in the morning, only to find that M was so impatient to find out the results, he had already logged in and checked for my results!

Alright, enough about geeky work. Everything's going pretty fine here. Coping with the breakup is quite a challenge, and it came with more frustrations than I expected- some were with Dan, but most of them were internal issues that I have to wrestle with. I have come to realise that no one will really understand, and it is a journey that I have to go through on my own. I find myself clinging on to God's words and his plans for my life. I have no clue what it is...but it better be worth all the pain. Not to say that clinging on to God's words have been easy. Firstly, it's not very tangible. And secondly, my human brain is still struggling to understand what greater good God wants to bring out of this. But in the mean time, I will just have to go with the flow of life, embracing every aspect of it and being thankful for all the good things that I have.

sqrewloose

Hand in My Pocket
Alanis Morissette

I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five
I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette
And what it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving the peace sign
I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chickenshit
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby

And what it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano
And what it all comes down to my friends
Is that everything's just fine fine fine
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxi cab

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I haven't really got it all figured out,

but everything's gonna be fine fine fine.

sqrewloose

The long Labour Weekend consisted of a mish-mash of happenings, lazy days spent lounging around the house was interspersed with catch up sessions with good friends whom I haven't been able to keep in touch with for a while. Ahhh.. good (sometimes even deep) conversations about life, relationships and things that matter to those of us with mutual interest really fires up the spirit. I'm looking forward to more of that as I'm only halfway through my long labour weekend!! Whoopee! Believe it or not, it's my first holiday since I got back to work in July, and a much needed one indeed. Guess that's what you get when you work in a lab where your supervisors do not observe weekends, much less public holidays!

But the washing machine has beeped, and my bathrobe is all soft-and-fluffy (cos I finally gave in and bought softener) PS: Ping I so understand how u feel about writing about the mundane things that are so important to you, and yet seem so trivial when put into words. So I'm going to sign off, hang my laundry, curl up in bed with the new Jamie Oliver Magazine and perhaps doze off!

Things to do for the rest of the holiday:

1) catch up with 3 other bunch of friends.
2) Bake 2 cakes, maybe.
3) Read some review articles.
4) Prepare for Catalyst bible study.
5) Make some trendy corsages from buttons and pretty fabric (they've been on my to-do-list for wayyy too long).
6) Do the laundry